In The Midst Of An Uprising
These past couple of days have not been easy and I've been trying to find the words to express how I'm feeling and literally the only thing that comes to mind is... tired.
When I see Breonna Taylor, I see myself, I see my mom, and I see my friends.
When I see George Floyd, I see my dad, I see my brothers, I see my loved ones.
I didn't know George Floyd or Breonna Taylor but they could have been any of us. And they had family and friends who are now mourning them and I cannot imagine what they must be going through. All I can do Jesus is ask that you please help them through this time and I hope your peace, which transcends all understanding finds them.
It's sickening and tiring because this keeps happening and overall I feel a strong sense of hopelessness because no matter what I do, no matter what anyone does, this will not end in my generation.
Re-reading my notes from my study of Philippians 1:12-26* has been inspiring in these times because Paul's devotion to God never wavered even though he was experiencing a time when he should have felt hopeless and afraid. It's inspiring because it reminds me not to let my circumstances or the daily realities of my generation make me forget who's overall in control.
The story of Joseph has also been inspiring during these times.
"You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is being done, the saving of many lives." Genesis 50:20
This is what Joseph said to his brothers during their reconciliation regarding them selling him into slavery in Egypt. Even though they had done it out of anger and jealousy and intended it for harm, God had a bigger plan, and that moment of betrayal was a part of His plan.
This makes me think of times like these when we're seeing horrible things happening and we wonder "Why?"
God sometimes uses bad things in our lives to accomplish greater things and we must always remember that everything that happens - good and bad - is a part of God's bigger plans. And His plans are wayy better than ours!
I will not live in fear for I know who my Father is. He has never left me or forsaken me and He never will. And when the time comes for Him to call me home, I will not be afraid of the how or the when because it will mean a reunion between me and my Father.
God will not allow anything that is not written to happen, therefore everything that's happening right now is part of a bigger plan and I will trust that God's plan for all of this will be revealed. Maybe our outrage is needed for something greater. Maybe our actions as a result of this are needed for something greater to happen. I don't know. What I do know is that everything will work out according to His plans in Jesus' name.
As I mentioned earlier Philippians 1:12-26 has been inspiring and I encourage you to read it below and reflect on it.
Philippians 1:12:26: Paul’s Chains Advance the Gospel
"Now I want you to know, brothers and sisters, that what has happened to me has actually served to advance the gospel. As a result, it has become clear throughout the whole palace guard and to everyone else that I am in chains for Christ. And because of my chains, most of the brothers and sisters have become confident in the Lord and dare all the more to proclaim the gospel without fear.
It is true that some preach Christ out of envy and rivalry, but others out of goodwill. The latter do so out of love, knowing that I am put here for the defense of the gospel. The former preach Christ out of selfish ambition, not sincerely, supposing that they can stir up trouble for me while I am in chains. But what does it matter? The important thing is that in every way, whether from false motives or true, Christ is preached. And because of this I rejoice.
Yes, and I will continue to rejoice, for I know that through your prayers and God’s provision of the Spirit of Jesus Christ what has happened to me will turn out for my deliverance. I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, so that through my being with you again your boasting in Christ Jesus will abound on account of me.
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